Happy first birthday precious Chloe!

Many times when I see other mothers plan for their baby’s first birthday, it got me very excited and I wanna do everything that they did. But in the end, due to some restriction, we did a simple one for Chloe.



Ahbuii ordered buffet catering. We wanted to buy a simple cake on that day itself but PIL asked if we have bought it and we said no. So, they said they will get the cake for Chloe instead. I really really wanna do something for Chloe’s birthday. Due to all the restrictions, I manage to pick something I can do. Crafts. So, I decided to do a simple decor.

In the end, I wasn’t very happy with the decor I did. I felt it looked like shit. Wet blankets and negative remarks and also no support just makes me feel… useless. I do give myself a pat at the back for being able to go through all the remarks and put the decor up.

Disappointment on my shitty decor aside.



Ahbuii’s family all turned up. I don’t think anyone complained about the food. Which means it is good.



Gave Chloe some broccoli as her dinner from the buffet spread. I gave mantou as well, but she didn't like it.

Ahbuii’s 4th aunt and her husband unable to stay until the cake cutting due to family reasons.



When Ahbuii’s 3rd uncle arrives, we assembled for photo taking and also singing the happy birthday song and Chloe cuts her very first birthday cake. While cutting the cake, a piece of strawberry slipped out. We gave it to her since she loves strawberries.



Chloe had her first taste of cake! She loves it!



After she had her cake, we change her into her chicky romper. Hung around for a little longer. We let her stay up a little late than her usual bedtime as well.

At about 9pm, we brought Chloe home, ahbuii bathe her. I went and prepare her cot and milk. After we dressed Chloe in her pajamas, Ahbuii went back to wait for the caterer to come and clean up. I, on the other hand, gave Chloe her milk and cuddled her until she is almost asleep. Placed her in her cot, and I went over to keep Ahbuii company.



To many more years of parenting to come.

Thank You

Finally… a day I feel like sitting down and type instead of hogging on my phone scrolling Facebook and Instagram.

I’ve been feeling shitty for the past week. Broke down twice, two days, back to back. First, I was feeling all the low self-esteem shit. Whenever I look in the mirror, I see a haggard woman with messy hair. Doesn't help much that my postpartum hair is growing. They looked like an abandoned land covered with grass which desperately needs a gardener to trim the grass. Unfortunately, my hair can't be trim for now. I have to let it grow longer so that my hair looks normal again.

I even have the “urge”.

I started searching for information related to depression. Apparently, postpartum depression can happen even after 10 months giving birth. But the question is, am I having depression?

I don’t think so… I think.

Usually, after a shower, my husband will head to the room and call it a night. While I’ll stay in the living room to wait for the time to pump. I try not to stay in the room too long cos I don’t wanna wake Chloe up. Even if she wakes up, I don’t want her to see me and cry and wants to be carried. But on the night of my second break down, he stayed in the living room after a shower. I was surprised. He didn’t know I had a second break down.

We talked a while. That is all I need. A talk. It didn’t matter what we talked. What mattered is, him spending time with me. I didn’t realize that I was feeling like that because I was lack of interaction with a person whom I can be myself. The way to keep me sane.

The next day I woke up feeling less dreadful. I still dread, but less.

Today during dinner, he suddenly said, “Thank you”.

“Thank you for taking care of Chloe and sorry that you need to go through all these. “

It warms my heart.

The Last Time

From the moment you hold your baby in your arms,
you will never be the same.
You might long for the person you were before,
When you had freedom and time,
And nothing in particular to worry about.

You will know tiredness like you never knew it before,
And days will run into days that are exactly the same,
Full of feedings and burping,
Nappy changes and crying,
Whining and fighting,
Naps or a lack of naps,
It might seem like a never-ending cycle.

But don’t forget …
There is a last time for everything.
There will come a time when you will feed your baby
for the very last time.
They will fall asleep on you after a long day
And it will be the last time you ever hold your sleeping child.

One day you will carry them on your hip then set them down,
And never pick them up that way again.
You will scrub their hair in the bath one night
And from that day on, they will want to bathe alone.
They will hold your hand to cross the road,
Then never reach for it again.
They will creep into your room at midnight for cuddles,
And it will be the last night you ever wake to this.

One afternoon you will sing “the wheels on the bus”
and do all the actions,
Then never sing them that song again.
They will kiss you goodbye at the school gate,
The next day they will ask to walk to the gate alone.
You will read a final bedtime story and wipe your last dirty face.
They will run to you with arms raised for the very last time.

The thing is, you won’t even know it’s the last time
Until there are no more times, and even then,
It will take you a while to realize.

So while you are living in these times,
remember there are only so many of them.
And when they are gone,
you will yearn for just one more day of them.

For one last time.

Hello Chloe

This was first blogged on Dayre platform. Since they've announced they are shutting down Dayre, I thought I should put this down here instead. More pictures and some entry changes here and there. 

Letter to my first child...

Dear Little One,

As I am typing this, you are bouncing away in my tummy. As if you are doing somersaults in my tummy. Every time you do that, I find it amusing. At the same time, I feel really relieved that you are growing well.

Finally chopped my hair!

After much contemplating, I decided to have my hair chopped.

My hair was so long, I was getting frustrated managing it. I used to rebond my hair at least once a year. However, in recent years I noticed my hair is thinning. So, I stopped doing any chemical shit on my hair and let it be.

I decided to have my hair cut cos, as I’ve said it, it is frustrating. Another reason was, to prepare myself for confinement. If I got frustrated because of my hair during confinement, I probably will use Ahbuii’s shaver and shave my hair bald.

Baby update!

The other day, me, Ahbuii and my MIL went to the hospital for a 2nd trimester scan. This 2nd trimester scan is needed because I am high-risk pregnancy.

The scan was good. Baby was about 433g. everything looks normal.

Baby Glass Bottle Sleeve

I made a baby glass bottle sleeve!

Baby Haul Part 1

Last month we went back KL and of cos, we need to buy some stuffs for the baby. And because the baby was shy and didn’t wanna show the gender, we need to go neutral first. Here are some items that we already bought. I didn’t dare to go crazy cos we didn’t know the gender yet.

Actually, I bought these without any direction. I do have a list of 'To Buys', but... I just felt a bit lost. First-time-mom lost. T.T

DIY Passport Sized TN Fauxdori

Finally a blog post that is not related to the baby. But the next one is. Haha…

I’ve been wanting to jump on the Traveler’s Notebook bandwagon for the longest time, but it is so expensive! Then, I saw the1992version has rejected stocks on sale! There’s lines and what not on the leather but it doesn’t matter! So, that day I bought the regular size and have it sent to Lynn’s place. I have a few things being help captive by her now. Haha… Can’t wait for her to send all of it to Singapore! Then, maybe I'll do unboxing post/video?

So, I bought the regular sized TN. While the regular sized I will be using mainly as journalling, my butt itchy! I wanna try the passport sized as well, cos the second batch on sale was the passport sized. I missed it by one tiny bit! Someone bought the last one, and no, I won’t buy Midori’s TN cos it’s expensive and I don’t know if I will like the system or not.

So, how?

I made one. Ngehehe…

Old Wives Tale on Baby's Gender

There was twice we went for scanning to try to find out our baby’s gender, but our baby is very very very shy (OSCAR Scan took very long to turn to get a view of the nasal bone). He/she doesn’t wanna open the legs for us to know the gender! So, I found some old wives tale and see how accurate are they.

Dr visits and needles

The happy posts are up, now onto a more serious note.

Once we confirmed the pregnancy using the Clearblue test kit, I know my pregnancy journey would not be an easy one.

I have Hypertension and Type 2 Diabetes.

The reveal + Mom's Birthday

After finding out I am pregnant, of cos the next would be revealing to the family members.

Once I went and test using the 3rd test kit, ahbuii inform his mom I might be pregnant but not confirm. Well, the line was fainted and we are just not sure. Until the very next day, we tested using the Clearblue, then we are more sure about it and that’s when I texted my mom about it.

Slowly, I reached out to some friends to ask about some stuffs and some friends knew about it too but kept it hush hush...

That was when I’m still in Singapore and still within the 1st trimester.

Entering the 2nd trimester, ahbuii kept asking me if he can announce alre or not. I kept saying no! Hahaha! Cos I’ve planned on revealing to my family first when I am back to KL, which was during the early 2nd trimester.

First up, Shia Lynn and Justin.

FINALLY I CAN BLOG FREELY!!!

Do you know how difficult it is to know something and you can’t share it out? And when u feel guilty about not updating the blog but you can’t and don’t know what to update because your life is revolving to that something that you can’t share?

Finally… I can share it now!

Neroteca @ Plaza Damansara

This is one of my failed food blog post because it is way overdue. I visited this place last year. Haha…


Photo from Openrice

Review - BRAND’S® InnerShine® RubyCollagen Essence Drink

Some time ago, I was provided with a box of 50ml x 12 BRAND’S® InnerShine® RubyCollagen Essence to try. To be honest, I’ve never tried BRAND’S® before. Not even the frequently talked about BRAND'S® Essence of Chicken.

I got home and started taking them on a Monday. I took twice a day. One when I woke up and another one before I sleep. 

Miniature Dollhouse

If you don’t already know, I love miniatures. The board that has most pins in my Pinterest are miniatures. Every time I'm looking for something else on Pinterest, I will always end up looking for miniatures stuff. So cute, I cannot.

Finally, I succumbed to the temptation and bought a miniature dollhouse kit. Oh, the joy of opening it was mad love.



I repainted the furniture.

I was too anxious to complete the whole thing.  I ended up didn’t take any pictures of the process.


Here’s the result! With lights!


Miniature slippers.


Mini book and apples.


A tissue box that has a real tissue.


Sofa with lots of cushions, just how I like my sofa. Lots of cushions.


Books neatly arranged. Some decorations using beads. Got phone some more, don’t play play.


More decorations with lavender.


I saved a lot of flowers from the flower crown workshop so I used it to made this!


Expectation...


Reality...

Flowers do brighten up a room nicely.

I made a few adjustments myself,

• There should be a wall light but I removed it cos I didn’t like it. 
• I removed the carpet cos I find it very fake. It was a piece of glossy paper. I was thinking to add my own cloth as carpet later on. 
• A few photos for the wall but I didn’t put them in, I was thinking to put other pictures instead. 
• A few cylinder boxes, who puts cylinder boxes in the living room out of nowhere? 
• Another pair of slippers, cos I lazy to make another pair. 
• Added real flower. 
• Added more cushions. 

I love the overall process. When all the tiny pieces of decorations and furniture completed, decorating and placing the items accordingly was satisfying.

I’m gonna buy MORE and make MORE! Or maybe build one myself without the kit. YAAASSS~

Bus chasing team

Chinese New Year passed and now only I wanna blog about it. I am such a disciplined blogger. 

We planned to go back to KL on 26th till 31st January and I manage to buy the First Coach tickets 1 month before that at 5am to avoid the website congested. 

On 26th itself, we woke up very early and got out of the house early. It was about 6:35am when we left our house. Once the cab hit the expressway, the traffic was crazy. We were thinking it was only because of the rain. When we switched on our Waze, it was accidents everywhere. To our horror, the ETA stated on was 7:46am. Being so jammed, we knew the ETA will be dragged later and later. We called the First Coach office and being advised that they only can wait 5 minutes. 

By the time we arrived Star Vista, it was already 7:56am. We were not the only one missing the bus. Another 2 girls arrived the same time as we did. The First Coach person told us that the bus just left. 4 of us discussed and decided to share a cab to Tuas to chase the bus. 

We got a cab pretty quick and we chased. While chasing, I updated my FB status. “Pray for us. We are on fast and furious mission to catch the bus”. When we arrived, the girl paid in cash and we exchanged numbers so that we can transfer the share to her. I saved her as “missed bus girl” cos I didn’t get her name. Hehe...

When we tried to walk in, we were being stopped by the officer. Of cos, why not right? So, we explained the situation to him. He communicated with someone, I’m guessing his superior. Numerous times, he said he cannot let us in. Tuas Checkpoint does not allow walk-ins. Sighs...

Someone else came out and talked to us. He gave us a few suggestions and all of it are mission impossibles. Me and ahbuii decided to head home, while the 2 girls took up the mission impossible. Respect!

We took another cab back home (it was a cab day or what?), then I received FB notification. It was Suyin. She said she is going back in the afternoon with her hubby and that is the back up plan if we really missed the bus. I was damn touched la! Damn relieved…

We placed our luggage at home and went down to grab breakfast. We were famished! We went back home and rest. Missed-bus-girl whatsapp’ed me introducing herself and called our little adventure “bus chasing team” Lol… She advised how much was the fare and her account number. She and another girl managed to go back KL. Yay!!!

We left the house and went to the place we agreed to meet up. We finally left Singapore at about 3pm. The journey was with bad traffic jam, slow moving traffic and mad smooth speedable traffic. 

We arrived home at about 8pm. While Suyin and her hubby head for dinner with her family, me and my hubby took the car out and had bak kut teh. It was raining and bak kut teh is just damn good to have when raining. 

I think next time we have to leave the house at 6am instead. T.T

Review - BeautyKeeper

I received this box of samples from Beauty Keeper via Sample Store and let me show me what came in the box.

Dah Makan?

There was this one week I had to settle my own lunches because my aunt won’t be around. Coincidently, DahMakan popped up in my Facebook newsfeed. So, I decided to try them. 

The moment I saw the name DahMakan, I thought it was a really smart and catchy name!

When the first delivery came, I knew I had to do unboxing video. Being a noob in unboxing as it was my first time, I eventually forgot to take proper photos of the food. T.T

The food was not bad! Definitely worth the price paid for. If I were to left alone at home without anything to eat, I would order from them again! 

Order yours here! https://order.dahmakan.com/

So, here it is. My first ever unboxing video!