house on fire!

no. i havent seen the real thing yet. nor understand the whole story fully.

all i know is, neighbor saw my house was caught on fire. tried to ring the bell, no one answered. obviously my grandma cant hear the door bell. =.="

then my neighbour, kulen called his friend, simon to call christine for my number. which she gave. but i didnt receive any call from him. i guess my uncles and aunties who stays nearby was alerted about it alre.

im guessing, the metre outside my house was on fire?

sighs...

alone

an ex-colleague of mine came over and had a chat with us.

we have not chat... as in deep chat for the longest time and i told him wat happened.

and he said "nevermind la. find a new one la" =.=

then i proceed with why am i working nite shifts now. and then he said it is pretty difficult to find new one cos there no time at all. haha...

working during the nite shift is pretty tiring and whenever there's time left, i'd rather stick to my bed. even the only time i go to malls is impromtu trips after my work in the morning.

things back home seems to be going on pretty well. and then will proceed with serious packing. :) really need to get things done and over with.

friends and colleagues have been pretty supportive and encouraging. they have suggested and offered help but i rejected due to some reasons.

something struck me hard yesterday. i havent speak to anyone about this actually, except ash ong and also that i ranted out in a forum. thank u ash and forumers. although u guys may not know wat happened exactly till giving the wrong perception, perhaps knowing there is someone who is reading and giving feedbacks made me feel relieved.

i was in the car talking with my aunt about my cousin brother and she said me and him are very alike. well., perhaps we are both sagittarius, on the same date. just different year. my aunt agreed and said yea... both of us "bou hei mm bou yao". meaning... we only deliver good news but not bad news. we tend to either bury it well, leave it as it is or it is just plain because, its bad news, why talk about it? i dont know about him, but thats me...

apart of my midnite shift affected my social life. i guess there's another thing too. i cannot absorb anymore negative vibes. once i hear issues/problems/concern or watever u name it, i will feel agitated. hence, i slowly hide in my shell, my comfort zone. i rather sit at cafes alone and hog on my laptop or go to malls alone and browse stuffs or eat alone. i used to think that all these are pretty lonely. i was afraid of being alone. but when u really need peace, doing activities alone is actually comforting.

i think i wanna go ikea, alone. ^^

a bed at night finally

blogging from some hotel...!

alone...

well, at least i can finally have a bed during nite time. just for to9. :)

after work this morning, i headed home to pack my stuffs. and told grandma that i am not going back for dinner to9. i got text msg from my aunt saying that when i told my grandma i am not coming back for dinner, grandma is glad that i dont have to work everyday. i've been going back to office everyday until she tot i got no off day at all. i am actually glad that she is relieved, despite that being lonely here. wan people to talk to oso susah. talk to blog lor.

my life now...

now, at the mean time... everything is pretty messy. well... i know it is definitely temporary. but still it is damn tiring...

Homeless Offday...

edit:
ok. my bad. my offday is on friday nite. checked the schedule wrongly...
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it'll be my off day tmrw nite... where shall i go?

a : creep back home when grandma is away already
pro : get to have all the house to myself!
con 1 : if she comes back at 7am and find me sleeping at home, she'll keel me. T.T
con 2 : dangerous. scared scared. T.T

b : come back to the office and disturb my fellow colleagues
pro : ada teman. ada internet. ada orang to kacau. :D
con : wa lau... it is like 365days a yr oso i come back office liao. siao meh... wtf. T.T

c : go rounding until 7am
pro : well... at least there's something to do...
con : petrol not free wan lor. T.T

d : think tmrw
pro : so i no nit to headache now and can work...
con : which i usually will end up with no better ideas. T.T

what is family and relationship?

start time 19:45MYT
i wan to blog about this for the longest time.

heck, even typing the title itself, my eyes are wet already.

as u guys know, my hse got break in on the 26th December 2009. the thieves sure know how to celebrate belated xmas.

the 2nd break in wasnt like the 1st break in where we can continue stay in because the 1st break in, noone was there to witness everything. so noone know did they bring any weapon.

the 2nd break in, my aunt was there. my grandma was there. witnessing 5 strangers with black cap, masked using white cloth, black long sleeves with white gloves, black long pants and all of them equiped with a parang each... surrounding the bed when one of them wake my aunt up abruptly...

they then tied their arms and legs. asked my aunt wat is valuble in the house. after aunt answered, he will always reply "if i found more things, u'll die". then followed by tying something to shut their mouth and using pillow case to cover their head.

aunt and grandma traumatised.

ever since that incident, we all went separate ways. aunt accompanied grandma to stay at 4th uncle's hse. i went to friend's hse.

every morning, grandma will request to go back home. as stubborn as it sounds, i know she misses home.

during my recent off days is the day i went back home after about 1 week. i never see my grandma smiled so happily at me b4 cos im home.

which made my heart felt even more sour.

but i didnt cry from the beginning since the break in until ystd. i did cry a little when big cow called on the 2nd day after the incident. but not like ystd.

ystd, i couldnt take it anymore. when i was driving back to my place, i felt like i wan to burst in tears. i keep holding back... but i couldnt anymore. i stopped opposite at my place and started crying hysterically. i didnt know who to call. i dont usually cry like that in front of friends. so i didnt want to call friends. i cant call aunt cos she'll be even more worried about me. she have more things to worried about especially my grandma.

p/s : end time 22:50 MYT
can u imagine how many times i stopped cos i dun wanna end up crying in office? i stopped each time my eyes turned wet...

best friend?

for someone i call best friends do not even know what happened. N it is all over my fb. How heart breaking is that? She texted me n said she had a bad day n asked to meet up. I replied saying i had a horrible week n cant absorb anymore. Her next text was "pouts. No worries. We'll catch up soon". For someone whom we've argued like fuck also took note on what happened to my family n offered help. Btw. I had to reject the previous comment cos i post my street address in SJ alert d. If include house number here, a bit way to obvious d.

i miss...

having a place of my own and start scrapbooking and cardmaking again... sighs...

gone. all gone. my sweat and blood making cards stored in a big file... gone.

i really miss cardmaking la. but no place. my hse is full of junk.

Stupid break-in

(in mandarin)
aunt : FASTER COME BACK!! OUR HOUSE GOT BREAK-IN!!

i stunned... my heart beats damn fast. never in more than 10 yrs staying here has a break-in in my house.

just the day before, the street light wasnt working so i left my house light on, and i got scolded by my grandma that i waste electricity.

now... this happened. sighs...

on the way, i called my aunt see if she have already called the police. and she screamed at me again.

but after some time, my aunt called me again and asked me (nicely) what important things i keep at home. my most precious thing was only my digi cam, my pc and my cash that i wanna pay off my bills. she cant check on my digi cam cos it's too messy, police havent take pictures yet. pc, too big until can be notice that everything is ok... but my money, that was in a white envolope... gone.

lagi la i stunned! i speechless weih. my 1st month salary half of it gone. poof! just like that. T.T

apparently, the police who came and checked on our house was the same police that came when my dearest nothing-better-to-do-fucker did creepy whistles. how did i know when i'm not even at home? my aunt told me, when the police came, he asked for me instead. :D

anyways, the whole proper story was. my aunt came back with my grandma, and my aunt noticed something is weird in my room cos usually my room's light is off. so she kept quiet and went to the kitchen and saw one big hole in the ceiling...




without hesitating, my aunt dragged my grandma out of the house, in case if the burglar is still upstairs (smart move. must learn! if me i sure bodoh bodoh go up d.) so, my aunt quickly called all my uncles and the police as well. my aunt told me when my 4th uncle came with the police, the police was holding the gun, my uncle was still holding a thick stick rushed upstairs to check. fuiyoh! so yao yeng! like drama oni. but i missed it. ishh!


we suspect, after he climbed in, he wanted to open our backdoor so that he can allow his fellow 'friend' come in and help or better access so can move the big electronic stuffs. fortunately, we lost the key for the lock outside. but the inside, he managed to unlock it. notice the middle part that's kinda light. there's a barrier we put it there and he manage to unlock and remove it.


the damage : firstly, my giant piggy bank, worth of 1k. inside was full of 50cents.


korek korek lagi... dun have anything...

my pc room. money in envolope, gone.

my mini piggy bank worth of rm600. inside was full of 50 cents oso. gone.

even my bags oso wanna korek... but my bag rm100 he took! :(

after all the hard work of korek-ing. they went down stairs again... they must be so darn tired, they opened the fridge and took 2 cans of coke to drink. poor burglars cant even finish it, they rushed of (i think they heard my aunt and grandma reached home) . cos when my aunt checked the can tempreture, it's still very cold. (too much forensic heroes drama) but please le. u really think malaysia police will take the DNA to test ah? mimpi la lu. they just came, see see. look look. draw on the floor plan where is messy. where is damaged. snap snap pictures. thats all...

so why did i say that the burglars are stupid?
1, my digital camera could easily earn them rm800, is still with me.
2, my canon printer which i already packed in a nice plastic bag, it's so easy for them to carry, is still here.
3, the Palm PDA is still here.
4, the handphone borrowed to me for my extra line, is still here.
5, my bag worth rm500, is still here.
6, osim uzap mini, is still here
and...
7, the envolope with cash for my bills... IS STILL HERE!
my aunt mistaken with another envolope!!! weeeeeeeeeeee~~!!! i dun have to starve this month!

actually, i suspect it's the whistling fucker who did all these. but it's all my assumptions. but how come both incident are so close to each other?

so all of us were cleaning up everything. all-of-us are me, aunt amy, aunt jane, aunt agnes, aunt vini, cousin tracy, uncle john, uncle derek and of cos my grandma. they still have the mood to joke. and i paling zha dou wan was from aunt jane... "aiyo, this house oni got 2 girls. why all the baju like got 6 daughters in this house wan!"

total damage :
50 cents coin = 1600
roof top fix = unknown
money in bag = 100

total gain :
family reunion
grandma's lesson to be learnt :- MUST ON LIGHTS!

one part, i really thank God that we're not at home at that moment. cos when i was cleaning my pc room, when i lift my shorts, i saw my grandma's chopping knife laying there. all my aunties was saying it's for breaking the piggy bank. yea... true. but when IF someone is really at home? would the chopping knife come in handy? have to chop bbq pork and thank God d. "tong chu wan san"

idiotics...

i really hate fucked up idiotics with nothing better to do. and i really didnt know this is actually happenning to me.

i just got back home from drinks with my colleagues. and once i got home, i went online. being in this room, my window has no curtain. my grandma lorh... cos behind my house is the kesas highway, so to her, putting up the curtain means dirtying the curtain. so.. yea... no curtain.

so i'm nicely online-ing, chatting and typing complain email...

suddenly...

i hear whistles... creepy whistles... looooong creepy whistles.

then...

suddenly...

*piang*

he threw stones to my window. i jumped. CCB...

and not just one! a few times.

i ignored. blast my speaker so that i wont hear the whistles anymore.

* louder piang*

another stone.

du kao lan...

i called the police...

the police came in about less than 5 mins. called my h/p to make sure it's the address. so i went down and explain the whole situation...

they went rounding behind my house but kenot find anyone.

chicken... u think i nice to bully ah!?

messy

im a messy person. in every way.

messy house.

the only place that is not messy in my house is the living hall n kitchen. which are all downstairs. cos it has to be presentable. but upstairs. believe me. if u say ur place is messy. come see my place, upstairs that is.

i got the feeling to clean it tmrw, but have to meet TSL after her work. so, i do not want to be all tired after all the cleaning.

mental note: IT HAS TO BE CLEANED!!!

i'll post a picture of it on how messy it could be, after i clean it up. before n after photo mar... ngeks.

messy life.

i dont know wat to do with my life. still fixing the puzzle. i dont have any memories these recent yrs. u know what u watched from tv when they said that part of memory is erased because that person doesnt have good experienced in that part thats why they cant recall that part. well, yeah. i think thats me.

i'm scared u know. really. whenever TSL told me about our past like 'oh. remeber when we yada yada yada?' and i will go. 'no, i dont remember. oh really?'. or when TJL told me we have watched a show at the actors studio before. or how we celebrated his 19th bday. it's scary. and now when HTL asked me if i know that someone from the call centre, my head went blank. i know i heard of that name somewhere, but... how i know her/him?

when i try to recall some certain things, i only have pieces of it. everything is so blur.

gosh... i better end here. i feel like crying again.

but before i do, happy things did happen to me.

like i said, my cheque cleared. done my online assessment. got another interview from the company i wanted. *screams' YAY!'* facial on saturday. getting streamyx very soon.

ahh.. happy things are coming back to me. i wonder where's the good feng shui from. another sagi, which is also an ox is getting her luck back too. call me superstitious but i really wonder was it the sagi part, or the ox part.

and oh!!!

i'm officially addicted with FaceBook.