PD~

omg!

i cant wait!
PD!!!

a plan that was planned months back!

PD!!!

a place that i never stayed b4!

Lexis!

wheee!!!

Sick week...

My week sucks.

Monday was on midnite shift. 10 mins before my shift ends on Tuesday, I started to go toilet. Diarrhoea.

Office, twice.

Then after work, went and pick MrV up for breakfast. He was just done with his on call.

We're pretty disappointed cos the restaurant we wanted to go to was closed, so we went to some random kopitiam and boy the noodle sucked.

Then, another round at the restaurant...

We then headed back to subang. Went and see the dr.

Few more rounds at home. :(

Went mamak with lynn n justin.

Another round. -.-"

It was nice catching up with her. Gosh... Its been ages since I last saw them!

Wednesday came, morning shift. The diarrhoea slowed down.

Thursday it stopped.

But...

Today... It came back.

Sighs...

I knw. I'm disgusting talking abt my diarrhoea. I never had diarrhoea for the whole week long!! That's crazy!

Ok. I'm disgusted with myself too. I shall stop.
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Respect...

typed a long ass post, but decided it was too personal so i ctrl+a and backspaced. 

i just felt im being disrespected. and being ignored the fact that i am being disrespected by a person whom i care most. 

i wanna talk about it, but then again and again im being brushed off until i felt lonely. so, i decided not to talk abt it. and just leave it. 

i bugged. twice. and end up being brushed off and i feel like slitting. 

thats why i decided to leave it. leaving it aside, i wont feel as shitty as feeling lonely. and worst, leads to slitting. 

and by leaving it, somehow i know that at the end, it will not work out. cos it lacks of communication. 

i dont want to be the person who keeps bugging and at the end did not get the result. i am not demanding for a result that i want, i just want a result that both parties agree to. 

at times like this, i wish i am single again. cos my phobia is kicking in, and it is not a pretty sight. 

so many bad experiences that until now i am restricting myself, stopping myself from so many things. bad experiences that made me think of nonsense. bad experiences that causes me needing constant reassurance. which, im not getting any btw. 

Life has now been explained to you

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your
house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of
twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and
I'll give you back the other ten." 
So God agreed. 

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey
tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said,
"Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's
what I'll do too, okay?"
And God agreed. 

On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all
day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer.
I will give you a life span of sixty years."
The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let
me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty." 
And God agreed again. 

On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your
life. I'll give you twenty years."
Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty
the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back,
that makes eighty, okay?" 

Okay," said God, "You've got a deal." 

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the
next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do
monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the
front porch and bark at everyone. 

Emo nite

I realised only few posts ago, I was being emo. And now I am in emo mood again.

I don't knw why. I blame it on my self esteem issues. I blame it on my self confidence issue. I blame it on myself. I'm blaming it on pms too tho.

Stupid mood swings...

I blog lesser now. I don't knw what to blog abt anymore. No inspiration. No life. As if my life is not interesting anymore. Sighs...

Today, I felt like crying. Since once I woke up. Emo level 100%. But end up I didn't. Just tears filled up my eyes and that's it.

No. Noone bullied me at work. Work is fine.

Then I came home. Showered. And watched tv alone. Comedy series. N I didn't laugh a single bit.

Ended up, I switch it off and try to sleep. But here I am, blogging on my BB.

So difficult to make myself happy anymore. Where's the old me?
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