Sunday, July 31, 2011

How Could You?

by Jim Willis

Warning :- if u r a cry baby, please prepare your tissue.

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask, "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a belly rub.

My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect.

We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate.

Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf. Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said, "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. T hey understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar, as he screamed, "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked, "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.

I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured, "How could you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dog speak, she said, "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her.

It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever.

May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

Copied from Doll's Family

cried? u've been warned...

Saturday, July 30, 2011

mega sale

hrm...

what is the point if the item's selling price was RM100, and then during the mega sale, they put a sign saying something like "original price RM499, now only RM150"?

Friday, July 29, 2011

if...

the dogs in my house still barks for no reason, i'll get a cat.

things i have to go through today to reach office

it of cos have to start with the usual traffic jam cos it is friday. standard...
1, pass by an accident. 3 cars kissing each other's butt.
2, vios died middle of the road as in really middle! middle lane! all cars cutting left n right to get away.
3, of cos above 2 will cause the traffic jam to critical level.
4, traffic jam in parking zone
5, no parking
6, rm15 for car wash
and yes, i am late.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

i cant believe it

i just cant...

despite the bersih rally just over not long ago and i was touched by how united ONE malaysia can be, i cant fucking believe it that YOU fucking stared cock at me.

yes. this is race issue... i dun want to be racist but sometimes the fact is so obvious for us to be racist. gomeneh~

ok, maybe u iz no bersih supporter. i iz naive.

but still...

u r a fucking slow driver driving at the fucking fast lane and when i cut in front of u, u fucking flashed high beam at me?!

how dare you?!

if malaysia has no law, i would have fucking get a fucking big foot and run over your fucking useless car! no. not car. a piece metal trash! with YOU in it!

after flashing that fucking high beam at me, i gave way and let u pass me so that u can be "fast" driver at the fast lane. instead of appreciating of what i have done... your bitch have to stare cock at me.

thanks. i know my car is very pretty. tqvm. just a lil dirty cos i havent wash my car in weeks. *sorry my baby* but ya. i calmed down a little until...

when i finally drove passed you at the slow lane instead, BOTH of u have the cheeks to stare cock at me again.

walao!

pissed!!! ultimate level!!!

screw you slow drivers who always thinks that u drive fast enough to be at the fast lane and didnt give a fuck when a car is coming behind u and OBVIOUSLY the car behind u is faster than u! fucking give way la u inconsiderate bastards!

梁文音 / Rachel Liang Wen Ying - 爱一直存在 / Ai Yi Zhi Cun Zai



那天我扬起帆 
Na tian wo yang qi fan
想看看未知的海
Xiang kan kan wei zhi de hai
心里很多话想说说不出来
XIn li hen duo hua xiang shuo shuo bu chu lai 
虽然我脸上看不出来
Sui ran wo lian shang kan bu chu lai

天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩
Tian kong yi yang wei lan que huan le duo shao yun cai
那时的你让我幸福百分百 
Na shi de ni rang wo xing fu bai fen bai
是否为我等待
Shi fou wei wo deng dai

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
Wo zhi dao wo de ai yi zhi dou hui cun zai
没有你泪停不下来
Mei you ni lei ting bu xia lai
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
Ni zhi dao wo yi lai duo bu xiang say goodbye
我痛说不出来
Wo tong shuo bu chu lai

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
Wo zhi dao wo de ai yi zhi dou hui cun zai
没有你快乐都停摆
Mei you ni kuai le dou ting bai
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
Mou yi tian wo qi dai he ni xiao de chan lan
回头看爱 都在
Hui tou kan ai dou zai

站在你的门外 我却幸福在徘徊
Zhan zai ni de men wai wo que xing fu zai pai huai
心里很多话想说说不出来 
Xin li hen duo hua xiang shuo shuo bu chu lai
但我想你一定都明白
Dan wo xiang ni yi ding dou ming bai
时间过的好快 
Shi jian guo de hao kuai
想念却不曾更改
Xiang nian que bu cheng geng gai
现在的你是否幸福百分百 
Xian zai de ni shi fou xing fu bai fen bai
我应该怎么猜
Wo ying gai zhen me cai

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
Wo zhi dao wo de ai yi zhi dou hui cun zai
没有你泪停不下来
Mei you ni lei ting bu xia lai
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
Ni zhi dao wo yi lai duo bu xiang say goodbye
我痛说不出来
Wo tong shuo bu chu lai

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
Wo zhi dao wo de ai yi zhi dou hui cun zai
没有你快乐都停摆
Mei you ni kuai le dou ting bai
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
Mou yi tian wo qi dai he ni xiao de chan lan
回头看爱 都在
Hui tou kan ai dou zai

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
Wo zhi dao wo de ai yi zhi dou hui cun zai
没有你泪停不下来
Mei you ni lei ting bu xia lai
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
Ni zhi dao wo yi lai duo bu xiang say goodbye
我痛说不出来
Wo tong shuo bu chu lai

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
Wo zhi dao wo de ai yi zhi dou hui cun zai
没有你快乐都停摆
Mei you ni kuai le dou ting bai
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
Mou yi tian wo qi dai he ni xiao de chan lan
回头看爱 都在
Hui tou kan ai dou zai

爱一直存在
Ai yi zhi cun cai

Friday, July 15, 2011

Kluang 7 - 9 July

looking at the above date above shows that this post has been delayed very long. hehe... (after so long d, i cant remember exactly what we did... hehe... )

we made a move back to kluang at nite bcos we wanted to go for satay celup in malacca while on the way to kluang.

we arrived in kluang at about 1.30am. fren's mom is actually a fortune teller and let her read me... and then head to bed bcos we got a long day to come...

the next morning, we went to Yong He for breakfast. and boy i love their curry mee. the santan... uuummmpphh~

we went back to my fren's grandma's place to rest a while and then we headed for lunch...

lunch was at ikan asam pedas with her grandma and dad.

after lunch we went over to a shop called 'united' and bought lotsa tidbits! that shop is like heaven! so many old school sweets!!

we then went to Kluang Lim for coffee. love the bun.

then we went for dinner at sin hon kee. i love the beef ball! the pork ball is just normal to me. but the beef ball is superb!

we wanted to sleep early cos we were damn tired. but then... we ended up reading tweets and FB updates about the massive traffic jam in KL.

the next day on the 9th, we had our brunch at Yean Kee. my favourite among alllllll the food i have tried! :D

then we went to buy dao sa pneah, more tidbits, and kluang noodle from the factory.

we then headed back to her grandma's home. we were following tweets and fb updates on the rally...

went over to Kluang Lim for coffee again. ah... the coffee is damn nice!

dinner was at a 'dai chao' place. didnt manage to get pictures but the butter chicken is nice. it is not like the usual butter chicken we had before.

after dinner, we went back to take our shower, pack and left.

we headed to seremban to pass the noodle and dao sa pneah to a friend and went mamak for a drink.

by the time we reached home, we were dead tired alre...

Yean Kee Beef Noodle, Kluang




Restoran Sin Hon Kee, Kluang




Kluang Lim Kopitiam, Kluang




Restoran Ikan Asam Pedas, Kluang



Restoran Yong He, Kluang



Satay Celup Capitol, Malacca



Monday, July 4, 2011

i iz haz

zero knowledge in politics.

which explains why i only registered this yr. after being forced by my family. and when i said family... its the WHOLE family.

and they said

9 July... hide.

this is why i hate politics...

Saturday, July 2, 2011

王菀之 / Ivana Wong - 我真的受傷了 / Wo Zhen De Shou Shang Le



灯光也暗了
deng guang ye an le
音乐低声了
yin yue di sheng liao
口中的棉花糖也融化了
kou zhong de mian hua tang ye rong hua le
窗外阴天了
chuang wai yin tian le
人是无聊了
ren shi wu liao le
我的心开始想你了
wo de xin kai shi xiang ni le

电话响起了
dian hua xiang qi le
你要说话了
ni yao shuo hua le
还以为你心里对我又想念了
hai yi wei ni xin li dui wo you xiang nian le
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
zen me ni sheng yin bian de leng dan le
是你变了
shi ni bian le
是你变了
shi ni bian le

灯光熄灭了
deng guang xi mie le
音乐静止了
yin yue jing zhi le
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
di xia de yan lei yi ting bu zhu le
天下起雨了
tian xia qi yu le
人是不快乐
ren shi bu kuai le
我的心真的受伤了
wo de xin zhen de shou shang le

电话响起了
dian hua xiang qi le
你要说话了
ni yao shuo hua le
还以为你心里对我又想念了
hai yi wei ni xin li dui wo you xiang nian le
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
zen me ni sheng yin bian de leng dan le
是你变了
shi ni bian le
是你变了
shi ni bian le

灯光熄灭了
deng guang xi mie le
音乐静止了
yin yue jing zhi le
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
di xia de yan lei yi ting bu zhu le
天下起雨了
tian xia qi yu le
人是不快乐
ren shi bu kuai le
我的心真的受伤了
wo de xin zhen de shou shang le

周笔畅 / Zhou Bi Chang - 单面镜 / Dan Mian Jing (Single Mirror)



你是不是发现了一下午
ni shi bu shi fa xian le yi xia wu
自己在说什么
zi ji zai shuo shen me
有时候笑 有的时候会失落
you shi hou xiao you de shi hou hui shi luo
你说对他了解不多
ni shuo dui ta liao jie bu duo
总相遇在晴天午后
zong xiang yu zai qing tian wu hou
否认了你对他的在意是真的
fou ren le ni dui ta de zai yi shi zhen de


你的感受没有意义
ni de gan shou mei you yi yi
独自默默为他加油打气 问候关心
du zi mo mo wei ta jia you da qi wen hou guan xin
其实他都看不到的
qi shi ta dou kan bu dao de
喔 都隐形了 残忍吧
o dou yin xing le can ren ba
你微笑之中 藏着难过
ni wei xiao zhi zhong cang zhe nan guo
是明明在意说不出来 还装作洒脱
shi ming ming zai yi shuo bu chu lai hai zhuang zuo sa tuo
快乐的悲伤的 情绪被左右
kuai le de bei shang de qing xu bei zuo you
不能被看透 OH ~
bu neng bei kan tou OH ~


只要没有开始就不会看见结束的感觉
zhi yao mei you kai shi jiu bu hui kan jian jie shu de gan jue
你笑着说喝口茶掩饰心碎
ni xiao zhe shuo he kou cha yan shi xin sui
不被看见 更是想念
bu bei kan jian geng shi xiang nian
不能说是苦涩的美
bu neng shuo shi ku se de mei
他一个微笑 你的世界都沉醉
ta yi ge wei xiao ni de shi jie dou chen zui


你的感受没有意义
ni de gan shou mei you yi yi
独自默默为他加油打气 问候关心
du zi mo mo wei ta jia you da qi wen hou guan xin
其实他 看不到的
qi shi ta kan bu dao de
喔 都隐形了 残忍吧
o dou yin xing le can ren ba
你微笑之中 藏着难过
ni wei xiao zhi zhong cang zhe nan guo
是明明在意说不出来 还装作洒脱
shi ming ming zai yi shuo bu chu lai hai zhuang zuo sa tuo
偷偷的躲在角落
tou tou de duo zai jiao luo


一个人脆弱 一个人洒脱 都是过错
yi ge ren cui ruo yi ge ren sa tuo dou shi guo cuo
感觉不能重新来过 只能再往心里躲
gan jue bu neng zhong xin lai guo zhi neng zai wang xin li duo
一个人在角落 独自的暗恋
yi ge ren zai jiao luo du zi de an lian
这样的你快乐吗 这样的你算傻吗
zhe yang de ni kuai le ma zhe yang de ni suan sha ma
安静的暗恋着 是吗
an jing de an lian zhe shi ma

周笔畅 / Zhou Bi Chang - 二手歌 / Er Shou Ge (Used Song)



透过窗口独自 看落日
tou guo chuang kou du zi kan luo ri
是否还有故事 活在这城市
shi fou hai you gu shi huo zai zhe cheng shi
曾写在手心里 最单纯的那一个字
ceng xie zai shou xin li zui dan chun de na yi ge zi
谁还会 记得是什么意思
shui hai hui ji de shi shen me yi si
为何倔强坚持 梦的放肆
wei he jue qiang jian chi meng de fang si
晃动着手指 不想再解释
huang dong zhe shou zhi bu xiang zai jie shi
早就已经看够了 别人眼中我的样子
zao jiu yi jing kan gou le bie ren yan zhong wo de yang zi
无所谓 会被讽刺太幼稚
wu suo wei hui bei feng ci tai you zhi


被谁遗忘了 丢掉了
bei shui yi wang le diu diao le
我还铭记着 收藏着
wo hai ming ji zhe shou cang zhe
心跳在左侧 还感受炙热
xin tiao zai zuo ce hai gan shou zhi re
捂住耳朵 依然唱着
wu zhu er duo yi ran chang zhe
什么被铭刻在 这首歌
shen me bei ming ke zai zhe shou ge
谁真的 听懂了
shui zhen de ting dong le


为何倔强坚持 萌的放肆
wei he jue qiang jian chi meng de fang si
晃动着手指 不想再解释
huang dong zhe shou zhi bu xiang zai jie shi
早就已经看够了 别人眼中我的样子
zao jiu yi jing kan gou le bie ren yan zhong wo de yang zi
无所谓 会被讽刺太固执
wu suo wei hui bei feng ci tai gu zhi


就算遥远了 斑驳了
jiu suan yao yuan le ban bo le
还是亲近的 鲜活的
hai shi qin jin de xian huo de
真心的快乐 再不会褪色
zhen xin de kuai le zai bu hui tui se
透过回忆 会更清澈
tou guo hui yi hui geng qing che
你曾唱在我心底的歌
ni ceng chang zai wo xin di de ge
被定格 永远的
bei ding ge yong yuan de


任凭世界变化 故事会长大 也不会擦
ren ping shi jie bian hua gu shi hui chang da ye bu hui ca
没什么可以 代替记忆真实的味道
mei shen me ke yi dai ti ji yi zhen shi de wei dao


被谁遗忘了 丢掉了
bei shui yi wang le diu diao le
我还铭记着 收藏着
wo hai ming ji zhe shou cang zhe
心跳在左侧 还感受炙热
xin tiao zai zuo ce hai gan shou zhi re
捂住耳朵 依然唱着
wu zhu er duo yi ran chang zhe
什么被铭刻在 这首歌
shen me bei ming ke zai zhe shou ge
谁真的 听懂了
shui zhen de ting dong le


遥远了 斑驳了
yao yuan le ban bo le
还是亲近的 鲜活的
hai shi qin jin de xian huo de
真心的快乐 再不会褪色
zhen xin de kuai le zai bu hui tui se
透过回忆 会更清澈
tou guo hui yi hui geng qing che
你曾唱在我心底的歌
ni ceng chang zai wo xin di de ge
被定格 永远的
bei ding ge yong yuan de